It’s funny to think about how different my life is now compared to when I first started this blog.
If a stranger asked me, I would say that started it because I wanted a creative outlet, somewhere to share my interest and love of makeup and the beauty industry. If you wanted me to be honest, then I would admit that I began the blog because I was a little lonely and directionless, not sure what I wanted to do with my life, and all I knew was that I wanted some kind of freedom. I thought starting a blog would give me a taste of that. In some ways, it did–it granted me the freedom to create and present something to a broader audience. Along the way I received both positive and negative comments from people whose faces I would never see; I made some very good friends but consequently I also lost a few; and I learned a lot of things that I would have never expected.
I haven’t updated in a couple months for the sheer fact that my heart just doesn’t lay in writing solely about makeup anymore. I’m a different person than I was three years ago, as anybody would be. My interests and passions have altered. I want to write about more than just my new favorite lipstick or newest eyeshadow palette… I want to write about my dog and the funny things he does and how much I love him. I want to write about all the weird and/or funny and/or sad dates I went on with other people which only led to me meeting my awesome boyfriend. I want to write about college! Like how I switched my major to aerospace engineering, and the challenges that come with it and how sometimes I want to pull my hair out but also want to know if it’s normal to love math and science so much? Sometimes I want to write about food-y things like meal prepping, and how I started lifting weights and wall climbing. I want to share pictures of everything. Just… real stuff. No fluff. I think the world sometimes forgets that there are real people behind the blogs that they read.
I’ve also realized that I’m loving life way more now than I did three years ago. I think when I started this blog, it was because I needed it. It gave me something to feel proud about, it gave me an outlet, it gave me people to connect to. But now, my real life is becoming more and more fulfilling by the day. I want to cherish my real life.
Part of me has thought about starting a blog just to write about all those things I said I wanted to write about, whenever I want to write them. I’ve considered just starting fresh elsewhere and laying Prettymaking to rest. Nothing’s been decided though, so it’s all up in the air for now.
To whoever just read through this, whether you’re new to my blog or have been with me since the beginning — thank you.