Do you like that picture of my dog daydreaming? I adore it. Since this blog post is more about my life, I figured I would start it with a photo that reflects that. There are a lot of times that I get the urge to write about non-beauty related things. I’m hoping it comes as no surprise to anyone to learn that actually I do things other than obsess about beauty products and play with makeup. So today I’m going to share some of that with you all.
A few months ago I announced I was returning to school to finish my degree. So far, things have been going well. This time around, I take my studies a lot more seriously than I did when I was 18. I came to recognize the importance of first impressions, attending class, doing the work required to succeed, studying, and other varying things that I didn’t care much about when I was younger.
Unfortunately (or fortunately, depending on how we look at it) I tend to be older than my peers, and as a result I find myself getting annoyed by the younger students who sit on their phones, talk when the professor is leading lecture, gloat about “not studying” and “bombing” their exams (do they actually think that makes them “cool”?)–does this make me curmudgeonly? It definitely doesn’t make me popular. But honestly, I’m not paying thousands in tuition toward college to make friends. I’m there to work hard, obtain great grades, and make sure I am qualified enough to be accepted into a graduate program when I finish. I’m actually really proud to report that it’s been paying off… I’ve been recommended to join the Honors Program, as well as become a member of a national honors society which requires a GPA of 3.5 or higher. Thankfully my goal is to graduate with a 3.9-4.0 GPA, which I am on track for. (I had to give myself a little wiggle room. )
I’ve been working part-time while attending school full-time, which can explain a lot of my recent absence. I can’t really work freelance like I used to since there’s no guarantee on how much you can make each month, which isn’t good when you get to a point in your life where you need to keep a close eye on your budget. Working at least part-time (with enough hours that edge me to nearly full-time) was a way to ensure some financial security so I could focus on my classwork. Of course, my blog has taken a bit of a hit with lack of updates due to the shifting of priorities. It can be hard to find the energy to blog when I start the first half of my day with 8 am classes, and end the second half of day after 9 pm since closing shifts are typically the only time I am free to work. I just have to keep reminding myself that this is not forever, and it’s what I have to do to achieve my bigger goal of finishing my degree.
What is there to say? I’ve gone on dates, started seeing someone for awhile, watched things fall through, etc. I think one of the reasons I love How I Met Your Mother so much is that I feel like another entire season could be written into the series based on my own failed relationships. I’m thankful that school and work keep me busy enough that I don’t have time to dwell too heavily on it, but it still can mess with you a bit. I don’t know if I’m ready to open my heart again to anyone new–I think I am, especially to the right person, but I’m scared about being hurt–so how do you know when you’re ready? Do you just wake up one day, feeling it? Or do you need to take chances by going on new dates, and seeing how you feel in those new moments? Hard to say. Actually, not sure what I’m trying to say anymore. Let’s talk about Netflix instead.
Ahhh, Netflix. What can I say? Pretty sure anyone who has access to Netflix doesn’t need me to describe the great sinkhole that it is. When I’m not in class, not working, not doing homework / research papers, or not reading my books, I am binging on Netflix–typically a documentary or a few episodes before bed of whatever show I am currently working on. In the month of January I watched the entire Dexter series. Now I’m currently watching Breaking Bad; I’m more than halfway through season 3 and this season is the one where the story has finally been picking up. Next up? Who knows… maybe American Horror Story, or Sons of Anarchy, or Parks & Recreation. I’m pretty much open to anything that either has a great storyline or can make me laugh. Netflix gives me a little break from reality which can be much needed in my life. People used to say, “Calgon, take me away!” Replace Calgon with Netflix and there you have it.
I was/am totally addicted to caffeine, which isn’t hard to be since it is so easily accessible. Let’s be clear about what I mean, though: when I say addicted, I’m not kidding. Ever since school began, my caffeine intake has gone through the roof, which can’t be good. In the past few months I would start my day with coffee, have a Red Bull around lunch, have another coffee in early evening, and on some occasions I would even drink a Red Bull at night. I never drink soda (Red Bull was as close as it would come) but who needs soda when you were drinking as many coffee beverages and energy drinks as I was? I probably would have continued that way, too, if I hadn’t taken the time to track my spending for a month. After that little adventure into personal finance, I realized I was dropping anywhere from $100-150/mo on just supporting my caffeine “habit”… most of the cost going toward buying 12-packs of Red Bull and near daily trips to Starbucks.
$100-150/mo just isn’t viable for me at this time in my life. That money could better be put toward gas, groceries, savings, etc., and not to support my need for caffeine. I’ve said it before, but since I’m only working part-time, it is extremely important that I create a budget and stick with it the best I can. That means giving up certain luxuries that I enjoy but can’t justify.
This whole “no caffeine” thing has been a challenge. When people ask and I tell them I am quitting caffeine–quitting being the operative word… it’s been two weeks and I’m still struggling with headaches and cravings and all that other stuff–the reaction is always the same: “Oh, I could never do that.” I totally get it. That’s what I felt, too. Quitting has been a very conscious choice because it has to be. You don’t just ‘quit’ and not think about it. Everyday I think about grabbing an energy drink, or a latte. When people talk about the cravings that addicts have, it’s no joke, even with something as ‘innocent’ as caffeine. I will say that I don’t think caffeine is the worst vice anyone could have. As you may have guessed by now, quitting it wasn’t about getting healthier. This choice was all about finances and reigning in unnecessary spending. The health benefits that will come along are just a bonus. Either way, it hasn’t been fun or easy so far but I’m determined to make it work. I just have to keep focusing on the fact that I am saving money.
Well, that’s about all I have to say for now. Hope you all didn’t mind this rambling post about random stuff in my life. I may or may not do these kind of posts more often. Feel free to chime in with the comment section below… especially if you have a Netflix recommendation. Feel free to follow me on Instagram as well, as I update that pretty regularly!